After my divorce nearly 10 years ago, I swore off love. I was fairly sure that love existed for others, but not for me. That somehow I was unworthy of love or that no one would or could ever love me. For many years I wandered, accepting this as my “reality.” Subsequently, I would only spend time with women that I would never fall in love with. If I ever met a quality woman, I would either push her away or run so fast that she wouldn’t be able to catch me. Four, Five, Six years passed and this cycle of loneliness and self-defeating behavior continued.

About three years ago, I set out to change it. It was hard. Many of these beliefs had been churning in me since I was a child. Covered with psoriasis lesions as a teenager, feelings of not being understood most of my life, feelings of worthlessness – these are the heavy bags that my subconscious had carried around for as long as I can remember. Breaking this would be the hardest thing I would ever do, but I set to learn to love myself (first of all) and then ultimately others. I didn’t know how all of this would play out and I knew I would make mistakes – but mistakes would just be the lessons that would help me learn how to love again.

During this same time, I start composing my new album – “13 Weddings.” The songs in this album are my lessons with love over the last three years – the positive lessons, where I learned to love deeply, with sometimes reckless abandon, I learned to love with patience, to take things “one day at a time,” to not over think things, to have fun, to be friends first, and to most of all, start to love myself. Here is one of my favorite tracks off of the new album (releasing to iTunes and everywhere on 5.21.2014). I hope you feel loved when you hear it and that it inspires you to continue your journey of learning to love yourself and others.