The Club Allure show in Sandy, Utah this last weekend was dubbed my “angriest show to date. ” After touring on-and-off since last October, I believe that the wear and tear of the road is finally beginning to show. Strangely enough, most people said it was one of my best and most intense shows they’d ever seen me put on.
Touring this much has been extremely gratifying. It’s always been a dream of mine. But it has taken it’s toll on my personal life – I’ve lost friendships that I failed to properly care for on the road, sacrificed chances at a normal relationship with a woman, and have felt betrayed by a number of people I considered family. I guess when you’re “out of site” you are technically “out of mind” for some people. Of course, my true friends try to make me feel better by saying thinks like, “they weren’t you’re real friends anyway.” Of course, this is probably true, but it doesn’t make the sting of loss and betrayal any easier to deal with. So this week I’ve been mourning the loss of some very important relationships and have been licking my wounds.
Fortunately, I’m always able to take my pain and situations that affect me into my songwriting. In spite of just releasing an album, I already have two new songs completed that have been inspired by these feelings of love and loss that I have been experiencing lately. I feel blessed to be able to have some clarity in these difficult moments with which I can write beautiful music. I actually performed one of these new songs, “Am I So Disposable?” at the Club Allure show to very rave reviews.
Note: All of the tracks from “We Are The Walking Wounded” are now available on iTunes. If you haven’t heard the album, do a search for me on iTunes and see what you think. It’s quite an achievement and the people who have picked up the album already say that they are in love with it. 